Tree, Leaf And Wind Part II

Leaf
=====

During Pre-University days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that it takes a lot of courage for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long. During the three years of Pre-University, I was on very close terms with a guy. We were not in a relationship but were best buddies. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learned to develop a new feeling I should never have learned - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It felt like a hundred rotten sour lemons. It was sourness at the extreme limit. They were only together for two months. When they broke up, I hid my strong sense of happiness. It was short lived as he got together with another girl within a month’s time.

I like him and I know he likes me. However, why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me, why didn't he make the first move? Whenever he has a new girlfriend, my heart will hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I started to suspect that this is a one-sided love. If he doesn't like me, why does he treat me so well? He’s niceness is beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I know his likes and his habits but I can never figure out his feelings towards me. You can't expect me to confront him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. I wanted to care for him, accompany him and love him. I hoped that one fine day, he will love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night and waiting for him to sms me. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Hence, I waited for him. The three years were the hardest to go through and I really wanted to give up. Sometimes, I wonder if I should continue waiting. The pain, the hurt and dilemma accompanied me for three years.

At the end of my third year, a second year junior started to pursue after me. He pursues me relentlessly everyday. It came to a point where my feelings towards him changed from outright rejection to being willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm and gentle wind, trying to blow a Leaf away from the Tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind only a small footing in my heart. I know this Wind will bring this badly battered Leaf far away to a better land. Finally, I left Tree but Tree only smiled and didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.